my heart looks like your heart

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Showing posts with label birthday. Show all posts
Showing posts with label birthday. Show all posts

Tuesday, October 6, 2015

#everyday




everyone who is born is here for a reason. and when someone's life begins we don't know what that reason is or who and how far that life will reach. but i do know that there is no motivational speech, no sermon, no image, accomplishment, or award to be won, that can affect one human soul like the true connecting with another. 

when someone changes your life just by being,
just by letting their soul out in your care and in your presence,
and not by the words they speak,
a job or skill they perform,
or the lessons they teach,
but by sharing life with you,
allowing you to see and love their spirit naked and raw before you,
there is nothing truer.
nothing so pure.
nothing more intimate,
peaceful
or loving. 

when it isn't about what they can do for you
because it's about who they are. 
when it isn't about what you want from them
but what you want for them. 
when there's no agenda,
when you know you are safe,
you know
you are home. 

it is where faith lives.

join me today in honoring someone you love, and celebrating the very gift of their birth,
their journey,
their life.

because once a year is not enough to celebrate someone's birth.
once a year is not enough to tell people what they are worth.

#gratefulforyourlife #everysingleday




Monday, September 23, 2013

pennies for fountains



there was once a time when i didn't know if i would ever be a mother. i woke up every day not knowing.  i spent every day wondering.  i went to sleep at night not knowing.

something many people take for granted:   having a baby.  women and girls do it all the time, sometimes not wanting to, sometimes without a second thought, sometimes as if it is their right and not a privilege. 

like many others, i spent years in quiet desperation, hoping i would one day be a mom, wondering why it wasn't happening for me ... yet seemed to be happening for everyone around me.  getting to know the joy of pregnancy only to then meet the agony of my baby not surviving.  more than once, reliving this tragedy to my heart and to my body.  to my spirit.

i prayed. i wished on stars. pennies in fountains. dandelions. birthday candles.  wishbones.  ladybugs.  other people's babies. any possible way to get my heart's desire out there. 

and then i gave up.

it was a time that made me question a lot of things. it was a time that made me re-evaluate love and life and faith and destiny. 

it was a time that made me the mother i am today.

i have never taken one day of motherhood for granted.  grateful for the honor of loving and guiding my two children and grateful for the children i am allowed to love as my own but who i did not give birth to, today i especially celebrate my baby, ian david, who i proudly named after his uncle, and who i proudly adore to the ends of the earth. 

ian has always wished on stars  



and asked for pennies for fountains.




i always have pennies for him. i always stop what we're doing and give him time with the stars, no matter where we are, how late it is, how tired i am, if it's raining, etc.  i always stand and smile both inside and out, in silence and respect, and admire him as he gets his heart's desire out there. 

i would be incomplete without the ability to love and experience the beauty of his very special soul in my life.  i am beyond grateful for him and for the fortune of being his mom.

i can't believe he is 10. 
i can't believe he is mine. 
i can't believe i could be so very very lucky.