love is the movement

i have come to terms with the fact that i have been an enabler for possibly my whole life. 

i have enabled people to hurt me

more than once 

and to think it's okay 

simply because i seem okay

or because i "make things" okay

and make excuses

and misplace pain

either to avoid conflict

or because somewhere along the way i was told or thought i must be at fault,

or both. 

i am no longer enabling others to walk across my soul with bitter tongue and careless feet. 

love guides me

with determination 

to make sense of things 

and to be open 

to understand and allow for growth 

it also guides me to draw the line and look out for my life

like a weight inside my body that leans me towards

and into

what is good for me

a compass that keeps me headed in the right direction. 

the only enabling i am willing to do now

is enabling myself

to follow love

and enable other lovers

to hold my hands.  

LOVE is the movement. 

walk with me ...